the only thing that will ever remain

A shot I took of my dear friend’s hands after serving a summer in Haiti

I’ve been studying Beth Moore’s David A Heart Like His study. Following David’s journey through all the turmoil that pre-existed his reign, how God chose him, and His actual reign is BEYOND challenging. It’s funny how God shows up as I’m studying. I don’t know if any of you have felt this way, but sometimes I’m curious if I’m doing what God wants for me at every moment. Specifically, what to study in my quiet times. I have not had that question at all while studying this. For example, today I was reading 1 Samuel 19:9-18, which is all about Saul’s jealousy and anger toward David. Basically David was in God’s will completely. He was victorious in his battles and well..the dude had joy! Saul’s son Jonathan was right there with David, guarding him from Saul and keeping David safe. Saul’s anger boiled over to him trying to kill David. Jonathan loved David so much and was so in tune with him he constantly attempted to save David from his father, Saul. I like to think that Jonathan was an angel figure. Not literally…but the Spirit of the Lord was so strong in him he was constantly protecting David from harm.

Jonathan had the love of the Father in him. He constantly risked his life by telling David the secrets of Saul. Jon didn’t care at all, David was his soul  brother.

1 Samuel 18:1 “As soon as he had finished speaking to Saul, the soul of Jonathan was knit to the soul of David, and Jonathan loved him as his own soul.”

I mean soul brother, literally. The love of the Father was in Him so fully, he risked his life. At the end of the insert written by Beth Moore she shared John 15:13. I looked up the full passage and the words I read blew me away.

This is my commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this, that someone lay down his life for his friends. You are my friends if you do what I command you. No longer do I call you servants, for the servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all that I have heard from my Father I have made known to you. You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit and that your fruit should abide, so that whatever you ask the Father in my name, he may give it to you. These things I command you, so that you will love one another. John 15:12-18

Let’s see how Christ loved..for starters, he bore the slurs and profanity that the people yelled at him while on the cross. He gave up his rights for the world’s freedom’s sake. He held back any harsh and cutting words as the very ones he was dying for tortured him. He saved the sinner that was next to him on the cross. He obeyed his Father. Challenging right? As I was thinking on all of these things, the song “One Thing Remains” begins to play on my iTunes. I love when God does that. It’s a little piece of assurance that this is reading this very passage learning about His very love.

Higher than the mountains that I face
Stronger than the power of the grave
Constant through the trial and the change
One thing remains

Your love never fails it never gives up it never runs out on me
On and one and on and on it goes
It overwhelms and satisfies my soul
And I never ever have to be afraid
One thing remains

In death and in life I’m confident and covered by the power of your great love
My debt is paid there’s nothing that can separate my heart from your great love

Praise you, Father.

I’m a bit biased..

 

..but I’m a mamma’s girl. Don’t misunderstand me, I adore my dad beyond explanation, but my mom..she is a part of my soul. Looking in past posts, the love for my mom is quite evident. When it comes to Mother’s Day I try to give her a gift or affection she deserves. The older I get the harder it gets to get her the perfect gift because when she needs something..she buys it. As I was thinking what to get her this past May, I KNEW it had to be something that would last longer than money. Photos. I contacted my good friend in the industry and in life, Kaylynn Marie, to schedule a mini-shoot. Prior to the shoot, I wanted her to feel completely spoiled so we both got our makeup done at Sephora. They did a phenomenal job! After being dolled up, we headed to downtown Baton Rouge for our photo-shoot and sushi date. The shoot was more fun than I could have even imagined. Kaylynn just captured us being us and did it perfectly.

Kaylynn always capture my best side, haha

um hello hot mamma!

off to eat sushi

Magic Mike from an unashamed man-loving, christian female

I cannot deny the fact I was quite intrigued when I first saw previews for the newly released Magic Mike. Not for the buff Channing Tatum, but for the perfectly age Matthew McConaughey. I do not think anyone can deny he is a good-looking Southern man. The more I saw the pre-movie previews of this Magic Mike, the more my heart began to realize I should not be delighting in this..at all. This didn’t come without conviction. My eyes wanted to look at Channing and Matthew shaking what their mothers gave them..sure I’m a female, I like guys…But my heart was tugging at my eyes and challenging them to close and forget the shaking I had just delighted in.

As a young Christian woman, I should desire everything opposite of this fantasied movie.  I am not just bucking up against Hollywood because the Bible tells me so. There are a lot of things the Bible says I shouldn’t do, but in my flesh I do. I am choosing to talk down upon this movie because I am held to a higher standard. The Bible states several times, that I am called to be in the world but NOT of it. I do not have to entertain the industries of the world just because I am of the demographic they are trying to reach and because Channing has a nice bod. I want to guard my heart and mind so that it can be pure for who I am dating and in the long run when I become a wife. Out of respect for him, I choose to refuse garbage like Magic Mike. If the tables were turned, I would feel disrespected and insufficient as a female if a boyfriend of mine did that to me. The first question that would pop in my head is “why would he want to see that garbage?”

I have been trying to find the perfect verse to back up the conviction I have felt toward this movie and last night one was brought to my attention.

Jesus states in Matthew 5:28 “But I tell you that anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart.” Switch up the pronouns and nouns and Jesus is saying “anyone who looks at a man lustfully has already committed adultery with him in her heart.” WOW. So when I lust after any celebrity or guy I see, I’m committing adultery? No way Jesus..that can’t be what you mean. Reality check to Kristen, that’s exactly what He is saying.

If I base what I watch or drool over on this verse, then I am committing adultery everyday. Thank God for His grace and mercy because without it I would consider myself completely doomed.

I am sure Magic Mike has a great story line..sure. He is trying to get out of stripping and get a job dancing..awesome Channing! Keep on trying. The fact is the movie is based on guys stripping and girls throwing money at them. It’s sad and unfortunate that as women we would even entertain that. I guarantee when the next stripper movie comes out and it’s based on a female, we will all be throwing hissy fits. The reason Hollywood makes these types of movies is because it’s supported..by a large demographic. If it stops being supported maybe money worthy films will come out. We should want to be respected as women. My encouragement to myself and to you reading is that you respect your mind and body by not allowing crap to pour into it. Prove Hollywood wrong and refuse to give your money away to them.

well..

To say i’ve had a writer’s block would be an understatement. I have wanted to write and express so much, but there has been something inside of me that keeps me from doing it. I am not sure if it’s because I am staying busy or if it’s my inner being telling me to worry about other things. I honestly am not sure what else to say. Sometimes I wonder if my blogging period has come to a close. Not to say it was a waste, not at all. I’ve learned so much about myself and I have met so many great women through this. For now, i’m quite blank.

a thirst only He can quench

Let me just say that I have not become sucked into the Hunger Game phenomenon. Sure they are great, but I just can’t get attached to it for some reason. In fact, I bought the first book on February 1st and I’m only on chapter 12. It’s a good read, but I don’t see the big hype. The last chapter I read stuck out to me though. I cannot tell you what page it was, but it was the scene when Katniss thought she was dying of dehydration (that’s right I’m not very far at all). At this point she is two days without water and wondering why Haymitch hasn’t provided anything for her. She begins going in and out of consciousness still wondering why Haymitch hasn’t saved her from death’s grip. As she sits in a tree, she realizes that Haymitch hasn’t given her supplies because she is close to the river. She understands that Haymitch was allowing her to persevere through this because she was close to a well of life.

This particular scene encourages me so much. I compared Haymitch to Christ and myself to Katniss. There are so many times when I think that I’ve been abandoned and left to die. I am constantly fighting thoughts on why I’m going through rough patches in my life. Haymitch could have easily sent provisions for Katniss, but he chose to teach her to persevere. Christ does that with me daily. He doesn’t withhold answers out of cruelty, but out of love. He knows that it will build my faith and challenge me to rely on his direction more.

Christians, including myself, easily give up and automatically assume that God left them just when they start going through hard times. It is not until after the matter that the realization of a deeper meaning is clear. Think about how much better a hard experience would be if the thought that He is teaching a lesson..a hard less..but a good lesson that will build up faith more.

I’ve been starting to feel fed up with the semester. I only have a few weeks left but I feel like they are dragging by so ridiculously slow. I cannot express how pumped I am for Spring Break. I feel like I have had a weekend to do nothing in so long. You could say i’ve been in an extended season of perseverance. I know that there is a light at the end of the tunnel though. Because of that, i’m excited for the end of the semester and summer. I just have to keep pushing forward. No matter how strenuous it may be.