I have been posting a lot about what’s going on the trip, but I have neglected to elaborate on what has been going on in my life personally. With that being said I’ve decided to give you guys a little insight on what God has been revealing to me. There seems to be two major reoccurring themes on this trip so far.
Suffering and love. No, we’re not being physically tortured, but there has been major spiritual warfare going on. We keep getting asked questions about why God allows suffering to good people. There are many ways to answer that question but for me personally I would say that one couldn’t really get an answer to that. It never says in the Bible that a person won’t receive suffering. In fact, God states quite the opposite. He says in Philippians 1:29 that it is a privilege to suffer for him. I should be happy to be able to say that I have suffered for the name of Christ. That makes me sound like a crazy person to someone that is not a Christian because they don’t understand the passion I have burning inside me. It makes complete sense. If I didn’t realize how much of a sacrifice God made for me, I wouldn’t find him worth suffering for either. Now I’m not saying that I fully understand how awesome God is and I know all about him. That couldn’t further from the truth. I am simply stating I have much to be grateful for. Especially when I look back at the place that I once was. I couldn’t have been further from Christ and his light. So if you ask me “Do you really think Christ is worth being rejected for?” I can simply answer- absolutely.
And since we are his children, we are his heirs. In fact, together with Christ we are heirs of God’s glory. But if we are to share his glory, we must also share his suffering. Romans 8:17
The second theme that Christ has been showing me personally is His love. Specifically how much I don’t deserve it. I was reminded today in my quiet time of John 3:30. That is such a humbling verse. It simple states He must increase while I must decrease. It’s not about me whatsoever. Everything I do has to point back to Him. The more God teaches me about himself and the word is not an okay card for me to think I know it all. It should do the opposite and humble me completely. I watched a podcast by Francis Chan last Monday on “Falling in Love with God”. The main passage he used was Ephesians 3:14-19. Paul falls on his face interceding for other believers to be granted the understanding of God’s love. Notice he is not saying we must do more works in order to full understand the love of God, rather he is humbling himself to a beggars position crying out for God to grant them his love. I’ve been reciting this prayer for my team, my family, and the relationship between my boyfriend and me. I don’t believe God’s love can ever be fully comprehended because it is on a totally higher level, but God will grant the love he wants us to understand. He has also been speaking to me a lot through the book “Redeeming Love”. That book is seriously one of the best reads I have ever read. I usually hate love novels on the count that I am usually more of a non-fictional reader, but this book conveys the love of God so beautifully. Each page leaves me sighing and gawking over the love that is shared between this husband and wife.
He must become greater and greater, and I must become less and less. John 3:30
So there you have it..I hope this encourages you somehow. Keep us in your prayers we have less than 3 weeks left and still so much to do here.